Monday, December 29, 2008

Still Standing...


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y4KiGN1j1No (I really feel like it is worth it to watch the video)


Walking, stumbling on these shadowfeet
toward home, a land that i've never seen
I am changing, less and less asleep
made of different stuff than when i began
and i have sensed it all along
fast approaching is the day

when the world has fallen out from under me
I'll be found in you, still standing
when the sky rolls up and mountains fall on their knees
when time and space are through
I'll be found in you

Theres distraction buzzing in my head
saying in the shadows it's easier to stay
but I've heard rumours of true reality
whispers of a well-lit way

when the world has fallen out from under me
I'll be found in you, still standing
when the sky rolls up and mountains fall on their knees
when time and space are through
I'll be found in you

You make all things new
You make all things new
You make all things new
You make all things
You make all things

When the world has fallen out from under me
I'll be found in you, still standing
Every fear and accusation under my feet
when time and space are through
I'll be found in you
when time and space are through
I'll be found in you
when time and space are through
I'll be found in you 

<3 Brooke Fraser - Shadowfeet <3

Home... the desert

(Palmdale, to be exact,
but at this point I'm not really discriminatory
against any kind of desert or Joshua Tree.)
Sometimes, I pray selfishly. I pray for bravery. I pray for patience. I pray for grace, not for myself, but that I may exhibit it and others will find me graceful and not judgmental. I pray for mercy, because God sure as heck knows that there are many times a day that I need his mercy. I pray for safety, comfort, warmth, food, and friendship. Is this bad? I don't think so. The Lord tells us that we want because we do not ask. (James 1:5-6) I don't do it often, but there are times when I feel broken and defeated. During those times, I fall on my knees, reminded that I cannot live this life alone, and praise God, He is there to cheer me on.

I am asking now for bravery, comfort, peace, joy, and trust. I am homesick as all get out. And yea, I guess I will admit it, I miss the boy. I also miss all my Spokane friends who are lucky enough to NOT BE HERE in all this crappy snow. Maybe I should pray for a love of snow? haha not happening. I did, however, pray the other morning that God would provide someone to dig me out after a losing battle with the stupid snow. I don't know if He provided, but shortly thereafter two strong men came around the corner and gladly took my 40 bucks to get me out. HAHA

I have amazing friends. I am proud to call myself a sister in Christ to so many wonderful women. I am also proud to call people friends who do not believe the same things I do. I am waiting for the feeling of peace and contentment to come while sitting alone in my apartment. I trust that it will, even if it takes a few tearful phone calls to my mom, or long, drawn out, spastic emails to the boy. ha.

<3 you are all amazing. Don't let anyone tell you differently. And when I feel like the world is crumbling, and I'm NOT going to make it on my own, and I'm losing a never ending battle with this ridiculous snow in my 3" boots (the only kind i own) with a snow shovel made out of plastic.... I will be found in Him.